Life on a different day and most likely a different planet.. :)

Life on a different day, and most likely, a different planet...
Current mood: blessed
As I read (for the umteenth time) my last blog, my heart smiles and my eyes cry... Those silly little fish... I suppose I will never forget them... Then I ponder the brand they left on my soul... Is it possible, however crazy this may sound, that I will always be affected by moments like that, because, 80% of my natal chart, is, water??? Many of my signs are ruled by Neptune... If you know me, then you know how detailed my charts are... Water, water, everywhere in mine... I grew up lost in a fantasy of being special and very unique... The type of person that you wouldn't forget once you met me... Then I start messing around with natal charts... Nothing unforgettable there.. (or so I thought)... I got caught up in the tidal wave of raising children, still searching for that something that really gave my life meaning and purpose... At some point I realize that my very existence was being defined by my girls... They gave my days a reason and rhyme... By now, I have done anyone's chart that will give me a birthdate... I keep going back to my own... The more I learn about people, the more I realize how very interesting my own chart is... 12th sign of both zodiacs... On the cusp of Aries(1st sign).. According to the ancient astrologers, I am a very, very, very old soul... Is that why I will tell you that I am "four years old", and mean it??? Am I really old enough to know that I don't ever have to be "five" if I don't want to?? My rising sign, and, my moon sign are both ruled by the moon... Yes, my moon sign is ruled by the moon... (Go figure) Is that why, to this day, I will break out in spontaneous howling (you know, wolves and the moon), especially, but not limited to, when there is a moon in the sky??? I actually think that the fact that I loved dog food as a little girl has something to do with that... (Disgusting, I know) Ask Kimberlee how often they have had to chase Emberlynn out of the doggie kibbles... And, dig them out of her mouth... (That's Mimaw's girl!!) Anyway, as I began to really dissect my own chart, and, do the same with my girls' charts, it seemed to be falling into place... There is nothing typical about anyones chart, but, by now, mine is absolutely amazing me... I really studied what it could mean to be me, and, I began to like what I was seeing... What I didn't like, I set about to alter... Oh heck yes, I am about as unique as they come... My children are definitely a chip off of Mommy's block, as are my grandbabies... They all have that wonderful sense of AWE about the world around them... Missy is my "oh-so-gentle" Sheep child, Kim, the feisty Rooster, will fight a buzz-saw running backward, and, Steph, my determined Ox, is as stubborn a child as can be... Steven loves the sky, and Emberlynn eats dog-food... (That was funny, so laugh, please.) You won't forget me easily... I amaze myself every day with how hilarious, ridiculous, and unpredictable, I can be... I don't know where it comes from... (I have yet to figure out how many Me's there really are.) I am, without a doubt, a contradiction to everything that I am... I am the most predictably unpredictable person I have ever met... Yet, if you know me, really know me, you will be able to call my next move every time... Ask my kids... I laugh harder at myself than anyone else does, and, once I get started, you will laugh too... My heart breaks for no particular reason... I do feel the worlds pain... I used to think it was a curse of sorts... I now know it is an amazing blessing, and, I hope I never lose that... With all of the above being said, (Ha! You thought I was off chasing chickens again, didn't you??), I will get back to the fishes... The little friends I can not forget... Maybe, just maybe, I was once a little mermaid, and because of that I am so at home in the water... I am equally terrified of it... Either way, I am greatly affected by it... As a first time scuba diver with the Magruders, I used less air than anyone else... Very unusual I was told... I guess calming your breathing down is usually a learned effort... I was instantly relaxed...  My cruise was unforgettable... The fishes, I don't really get it yet... It was the most amazing high, being surrounded by them... To see them looking at me looking at them... This is all very repetitive, I know, but it was such an unbelievable moment in time... It was such an unbelievable moment in time.... Thank you God... Thank you... For my life... For all of the blessings in my life... Even the ones that brought great pain... They brought me to this wonderful place... WOW.... Just, WOW...